December 7, 2012.

Wrote my Chemistry final today. Came back home exhausted, with a bit of hope that I might have a whole evening to relax. Then, I found out that one of my friends from Korean elementary school added me to the facebook group for the graduation class of 2006.

It's such a weird thing- seeing all these familiar faces that are so different from what I last remember. Some of the wall posts show how most of them are still living in the same neighbourhood. This isn't so surprising as my family in Seoul still lives there.

Going through the members list, I was surprised to see how people changed over time (Here I am, still judging others by their facebook) and also what their most recent 'title' was. Although many of them still had their high school name, I couldn't help but noticing so many names of good, competitive universities in Korea and different part of the world; includes the ivy leagues and Northeastern liberal colleges. Yes, I have to admit that I became little jealous.

I don't know. It kind of made me wonder where I stand and what my life would've been like if I didn't leave Seoul or took any different path in the past. Is Toronto where I really wanted to be? My life has gone through so many abrupt and radical changes that I can't even guess the possible outcome of any of them, but the one I'm in. Jealousy is such a dangerous thing- it makes me feel like I have achieved absolutely nothing in my life. And I somehow believe in that tonight.


Alas. I hope tomorrow is a better day.