March 23, 2013.

I'm closed. My ear is always plugged in with music and my shade puts another layer on my vision from others. I often find myself being an observer- taking photos and staying passive in interactions. I don't have many friends (not in the same way as a high school student would say) and I don't connect or talk with my family as much as I want to. I've developed this blog to put my inner world out, and yet it's always filtered through my conscious of what to share and what not to share-

This wall within me is too high and I find myself constantly pushing people out of it. Please help me bring down this wall with me- it's lonely, cold, and full of guilt and shame in here. I want to get better. And I believe that I can (: